This whole song makes me reflect on Ben’s later years, and brings to mind pieces of the mosaic like the band’s break up, his romantic relationships, his musical direction… and how he might have coped with all of that. I do believe that he was strongly loved during those hard years; I only hope he recognized it and took it to heart.
“Most were being good for goodness’ sake but you wouldn’t pantomime
You are more beautiful when you awake than most are in a lifetime
Through the haze that is my memory, well,
You stayed for drama though you’d paid for a comedy
I know I can be colorful, I know I can be gray
I know this loser’s living fortunate and I know you will love me either way”
— The Verve Pipe, “Colorful”